I will not accept fat as my fate

The diabetic tales continue as I become more and more frustrated. 

I met with my doctor this morning to go over the severe low blood sugars I am having.  She pointed out to me that 31% of the time my glucose is slightly elevated, 55% of the time it is in good range and only 14% of the time is it low.  ONLY 14% of the time.  I politely asked her "How many times does it take to have a severe low of 37 and go into a coma or die"?  Her reply was an astounding ONE!  SO I then asked her if 14% was supposed to somehow be acceptable?  She stopped trying to make me feel okay with the numbers and we talked facts after that.  24 years with this disease...I am not going to be happy with 14% hypoglycemia.  On a happier note, she said things are looking positive for getting my CGMS reinstated.  Most of my lows are happening between 0200 and 0600 or 1200 and 1800.  With them happening both nocturnally and with unawareness it looks promising.  I can only pray this works out in my favor.  Hypoglycemic unawareness is no joke. 

After we handled this we talked about my weight fluctuation.  I have gained three pounds back in the past two weeks.  I am so very discouraged about this.  I know, I know!  Muscles weigh more than fat and I am gaining muscle but I am not okay to be sitting at my current weight.  For my height I am not considered overweight but I feel fat.  I am 176 lbs.  I was down to 173.  I asked my doctor about this and she gave me the typical song and dance.  People taking insulin are at a disadvantage for losing weight.  Over time the weight slowly builds and is almost impossible to get off because of the treatment of the disease...blah blah blah.  I know all this is very true but I am not willing to accept it.  I do not want to he this heavy and I will not teeter on this crazy see-saw anymore.  You see, 170 is where the BMI places my height at not being overweight. 176 is in the overweight range but with my 5-8 lb rapid fluctuations, the doctor is not concerned.  I am concerned.  I do not want to be HEAVY or OVERWEIGHT!!!  I will not accept this as the norm nor as mu fate.

The moment I got home I called my PCM asking for a referral to a nutritionist.  I have taken diabetic diet classes before but it has been years.  I also want to learn the full aspect of nutrition not just how it affects my diabetes.  I also called the Army Wellness Center and made my first appointment to use their BodPod.  This machine will tell me how much body fat I have exactly.  It will also tell me my problem area and how much body fat is the necessary amount.  Once I have completed this appointment I will be making the second appointment for metabolic testing.  I will find out exactly how my metabolism is functioning. 

I may never be the idea 145 lbs I was 10 years ago but by God, I will do everything in my power and use every resource available to get fit.  I will not let T1D determine how my body feels.  It does enough damage to me mentally.  I will not go down physically without a fight. 

#t1dlookslikeme #t1dwontstopme #insulinpumper #noexcuses #Icandoallthings #fighttothefinish

Push partner

I was irritated today and had a negative attitude about a personal situation.  My #mondaymotivation was non existent.  This is why is important to have support.  My #husband @selfleaderii who knows my goals and believes in me, would not let me #quit. He tossed my #wonderwoman #workoutgear at me,  mixed my #energize #preworkout, stated my dvd of #Hammerandchisel and told me to "get it done"! Dragging #glutes and #elbows I got started.  I'm glad I did.  #totalbodychisel and #10minuteabchisel done.  #neverskipamonday #pushpartners #goals #husbandandwifestuff

Found a CGMS!

Found a #cgms is a drawer and decided to use it.  Hopefully #healthnet & #tricare well review my claim again and approve the request.  Life is certainly better with these medical advances.  My husband/medic is putting them in my arm for me.  #t1dlife #insulinpumper #enlitesensor @selfleaderii

Almost dead

So I had a minor set back this evening.  My blood sugar crashed hard. I was reading and suddenly my leg muscles cramped up and I couldn't see.  I was able to check my glucose and it was 37. I literally crawled to the fridge, sat in the floor and chugged juice from the bottle.  30 minutes later I checked and it was 67. I had a KIND bar and peanut butter.  30 more minutes I was only at 75. Had a glass of milk.  Another half hour,  63. So my husband calls urgent care (he's home by this time) and they tell him bring me to the er. During the 20 minutes it took to get to the er my glucose stabilized and was a perfect 109. So there was nothing to er could do for me.  No idea why I crashed so hard.  So,  I ate a really hearty dinner;  steak,  potato,  steamed veggies so hopefully I'm remain stable now.
I had to completely forget about my calorie intake and nutrition plan in order to "feed the insulin". It was scary and hopefully I did not ruin this week's progress. #workoutgoals #Hammerandchisel #t1dwontstopme #t1dtriedtokillme #nadiabetes #jdrfny

Hypoglycemia Unaware

Trying to get ready for my #biblestudy with #pwoc and my pump stays screaming at me.  Thank God for the #cgms I found in my box of supplies last week.  My #glucose is dropping again.  I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow to talk about all this and put a new claim into #healthnet and #tricare with the new data showing the lows. It sucks because hypoglycemia unawareness not safe for me to #drive and I like my bible study.  This is how #hypoglycemiaunawareness can debilitate your #qualityoflife Feeling disappointed and defeated.

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