The Evolution of My Soul

Black
Cold
Dark
Soulless

Empty
Longing
Hateful
Cruel

Singular
Solitary
Alone
Dismissed

Changes
Feelings
Him
Happiness

Compassion
Empathy
Love
Beautiful

Excitement
Mystery
Glory
Wonder


~EP

Heart of the South

There is nothing better than being southern. I miss the hospitality and graciousness of the sweet deep south. Let us not get this confused with city life south. City south and country south are very different countries.

In the country you can be waking down the street and get invited to a barbeque. By strangers. And oddly enough you are not afraid to join and partake. You never meet a stranger because we are all a little strange.

Family values are important to the older generation. They will fight to the death for a family member and you are always your Mamma's baby.  Of this she will remind you often. Your Daddy is always your hero and protector, no matter the danger.

Your siblings are your worst enemies and best friends. They will be at your side in a moment flat. Then immediately call you out on your bull shit.

And your grandparents are God's gift. As they get older you learn to value time and cherish every moment with them.

I miss my family and the south but I have a family and life of my own in the Pac NW. The south may be my past but it's forever in my heart.

Preparing for change

Sometimes this military life is emotionally draining. I have known for months my husband would be leaving this year. However, as the days and months tick by and the date of departure gets closer, I get more and more sad. I try to hide it but that is epically failing. I am afraid of ruining our time together because I am dreading the future. I am overly sensitive, somewhat grumpy and way to weepy. I nearly cried when someone hit my car at work. I mean seriously, it is just a car. I am listening to sad music or death metal.Neither are typical for me and they are seriously not good choices for the depressed. I don't want to be sad already but I cannot shake this sadness. I don't want him to leave.